August, 9, 2025 – Today marks my 2-year anniversary of escaping a 34-year marriage plagued by infidelity, lies, secrets, and deceit. Two weeks ago, my ex-husband revealed he did not love me, uttering those devastating words three times. However, he’s being kind to me lately, leaving me wondering why?
In the past two years, I’ve discovered the life I thought I knew was a lie. I’d been living blindly, hoping against all odds that things would improve. But with each passing day, I’ve found strength within myself.
I’ve cried, battled silently, and endured countless moments of pain. Yet, I’ve refused to let that pain break me. I’ve established boundaries to protect my hard-won peace and reclaim my power.
I deserve to be treated better, to matter, and to be loved. In 2022, I lost everything and everyone I thought I knew. I never knew my life was changing right in front of my face for almost two years before discovering the lies, secrets, and deceit! As I look back, I never knew there was anything wrong. In my eyes I was happy, content and I never thought “my person” belonged to another. I just never thought my life would change without my noticing!
The final blow came when I left our home of 22 years, I still own the house with my ex, but now it is a haunting reminder of what once was. Memories linger: family gatherings, friends, music, and laughter. But it was all a facade, a lie. “Just to fix me,” he said.
The pain of my dog Pico’s passing on the same, exact day I left, still lingers. It’s a wound I wish I could heal.
It took me two years, I’ve come to realize my worth. I know who I am, and I know I was thrown away like trash. (What a mistake on his part!). I’ve emerged stronger, no longer caring about things certain people say to me, call me names, say I am unwell mentally, and try to cut me into pieces at any given chance. Now I just smile and know these people are hurting deep inside and they take it all out on me… Brush it off and wipe it clean….
I cherish my new life, my cozy home, my loving dog Hazel, and my newfound joy. Each morning, I wake up smiling, feeling blessed and alive. I’m rediscovering myself, prioritizing self-care, and embracing my newfound freedom. I am risen.
I’m thrilled to share that my art and photography have been flourishing! I’ve had the honor of being selected as the 2024-2025 Artist in Residence, and I’ve had numerous shows throughout these two incredible years.
On a personal note, I’ve welcomed a precious new puppy into my life, Hazel over one year ago. This journey has been transformative, and I’m overjoyed to say that I’ve rediscovered myself. I no longer cry in the shower, doubting my worth. I stand tall, knowing who I am, and I refuse to let anyone make me feel otherwise.
As I celebrate this new chapter, I remember my beloved furry friends who’ve crossed the rainbow bridge. Pico and Baby-Bear, I love and miss you both dearly. Thank you for being by my side for almost 17 years, and for blessing me with Hazel’s loving presence.
As I look to the future, I’m empowered by the knowledge that any potential relationship will be on my terms. I’ll prioritize my boundaries, trust my instincts, and ask myself: “Is he worth me giving up what I’ve worked so hard to achieve for myself?” I’m proud of the strong, resilient woman I’ve become, and I’m excited to see what the future holds.
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