On March 31, 2023, I stumbled upon more heartache, secrets, deceit, and lies, that continued beyond discovery on December 5, 2022. I was so devastated, I cried as though it was a death.
As I came home and sat at my bay window, I kept crying and praying to God for some answers. At that moment I found something that uplifted my spirits and found my answer at that very moment… an eagle sighting right outside of my front door! (I had my first sighting of an eagle in our backyard on Sunday, December 12, 2021, around 9:00 AM)
While I was praying, I heard a few crows going wild near the front door. Being a wildlife photographer, I knew what signs to “listen” for. I grabbed my camera and slowly opened the front door, I looked up and I saw something large staring down at me. At first I thought it was Great horned Owl, but as I looked into my camera, I saw that it was a beautiful eagle!
Eagles are known to symbolize power, strength, and freedom, and seeing one indicates that you are about to embark on a new journey that will take you to new heights and give you a fresh perspective on life.
I even made a poster of “my eagle” (shown here with the gold bars on the top and bottom) that I plan to hang in front of my bedroom (where I am moving to – not in the bedroom – in Feng Shui it is good to keep the Eagle out of the bedroom… too much masculine energy). Every morning when I wake up, I will see this beautiful eagle and read the message on my poster.
This eagle brought me a silver lining in an otherwise difficult time. Life is getting better for me. I am blessed and grateful. I am 99.9% over the hurt and I know that I am healing well as each day goes by! I am happy and I feel so blessed to have my health, my sisters, my son and my friends.
7.7.2023 – UPDATE: I can feel my energy changing for the better! My creativity is coming back and I am hoping for new opportunities! As I update this post, my birthday was yesterday. My life has changed SO much within six months! The life I had for 35 years is gone. My thinking and planning in those 35 years is so different now. I see things SO clearly now. What I thought was love, trust, and honor never existed in those 35 years. 90% of it were blame-shifting, Gaslighting and manipulation.
If you are going through something painful that changed your way of thinking, hope, and entire life, try to understand, it is part of your life that you need to go through, (I am still trying to understand why things have to be the way they are). Try to keep your faith from within and know in time, things will get better. One day, you will understand why you had to go through what was handed down to you. Until then, PLEASE try to keep your head held high and keep you faith!